happy tuesday everyone! hope you are having a wonderful week..
this morning i had a lovely bowl of heaven (fage 2%, cinnamon, truvia, banana slices, kashi puffs and kashi honey sunshine) along with frozen grapes
at the gym i did a quick 40 min on the elliptical and some weights.. my knee has been feeling great today and i’ll probably give it another week or so before i re-introduce some MILD running/jogging.
lunch was a fabulous tofu n veggie wrap with carrots and pretzels.
during my travels i snacked on this bar..
me n mum went into brookline tonight for a class at the kabbalah centre… i just love going there. i also met with one of the volunteer coordinators there (that was the initial reason as to why i went tonight), and i think i am going to be volunteering in the bookstore– so that should be good!
during the class i snacked on blueberries and staceys pita chips and hummus (LOVE intuitive eating!!). it was so nice to be back at the centre– i have not taken a class there in a while and i just LOVE the positive energy of all the people there. i was also able to get a set of the zohar– the zohar is a set of 23 volumes (books) that IS THE MOST SACRED text of kabbalah– usually the set retails for $300-$400 but i was able to get mine free courtesy of the zohar project i am sooo thankful for this! it is said that just OWNING these volumes brings LOTS of ‘light’ and POSITIVITY into your life! thank you to the kabbalah centre and the zohar project!!!!!
anyways…me n mum originally planned on having dinner at a fabulous and very well known jewish deli around the corner from the centre called zaftigs but when the class got out (around 8:45) mum said her stomach was bothering her a bit so we decided to just go home! (i’m praying it was not from the clif bar she had before the class which was her first one ever!!)
needless to say– we got home and settled around 9:30 and i made myself an amy’s texas burger with bone suckin sauce, spinach and tomatoes and veggies along side.
with a few handfuls of…
(sorry the pic will not flip)
dessert was mixed candy from dylans!!!! no idea the calorie count on any of this 
but i had a few more nibbles n bites than pictured
in other news– i am happy to say i have met my goal weight once again. its such a weird/emotional/happy/upset/frustrated/at peace/relieved feeling all at once. i had completely forgotten the whole ‘maintenance’ mentality– i know how to gain– i know how to lose– i just find it SO hard to try to maintain– but i’ve got to do it… and i will. (and i need to realize that even if for some reason i DO gain a few more lb– thats PERFECTLY fine– i’m at the lowest ‘healthy’ weight for my height and i am NOWHERE near the ginormous ‘fatty’ DE tries to tell me i am).
i guess i just need to keep reminding myself of this– and keep pushing through. my mum, grandma, aunt and two of my cousins are takin a trip to washington dc in about a week and a half and mum wants me to go… truth is– i have been apprehensive about going for a few reasons (DE being the obvious #1.. especially because my mum wants to go monday-wednesday and i know sonu will probaby be here friday-sunday so that means no working out friday-wednesday… i know i can do it– but there is no denying it’s causing me anxiety)… i’ve also just been really stressed with all of the stuff that has been going on- although it would be nice to go to DC– i haven’t been in a while– its always SO humid in the summer but it would be nice to get away again. what do you guys think??
and last but not least– THE GIVEAWAY WINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just want to say– i REALLY appreciate everyone taking the time to enter my giveaway and leave a comment about what you would like to see more or an FAQ question! it’s evident that you guys want to see more:
-video posts
-pictures
-traveling experiences
-food reviews
-beauty tips
-kabbalah
-of my fashion style
thank you everyone for the great feedback! i will definitely be incorporating more of this stuff in the future! additionally– i will be making an FAQ page (for real this time– lol!) with all of your questions! i got some great ones!
and now– without further ado………
(by the way i used www.random.org to get a random number integer)
and the winner is……..
MISS LINDSEY!!!!! and here is her comment:
Hey Jamie!
I just started reading your blog a couple months ago and I have to say I find your honesty with food and excercise to be very refreshing. I have many friends who struggle with disordered eating and by reading your blog I feel like I can relate to their struggles better.
I would love to win this care package of goodies to share with my friends. It would definately brighten their day and make our snacking easier and healthier!!
What is your favorite trainwreck reality t.v series? I love me some Real Housewives of New Jersey!
CONGRATULATIONS GIRL!!!!!!!! and to answer your question– i LIVE for trashy reality tv. top chef is definitely my #1 and real housewives is without a doubt #2 !!!!!! gotta love those crazy women
daily consideration: what is the one ‘thing you do’ or mindset that you have that helps you to maintain your weight?
alright everyone have a fabulous night! that’s all for now!!!!! xoxoxox j
Your dessert looks so colorful and fun!!! Loved the pictures of you and sonu! you are so pretty Jaime!!
DC?? what???
you.
have.
to.
come.
to
DC!
seriously, I would love to get lunch and meet up!
Huge congrats on the progress you have made jaime- both mentally and physically
Maintaining for me is tricky… I am working hard on getting out ofthe “must lose” mindset I’ve been in for years. Things that help me are focusing on how I feel and not how I look and making my diet is nutritious and full of the stuff I need 
Congrats to Lindsay and I hope your mom feels better!
that candy looks delicious girl! so glad you finally got to dylan’s candy bar. it’s totally the sweetest place on earth
sugar (doo doo doo doo doo doo)
aw, honey honey!
wish i had some of that candy!
MAD PROPS MAMI! I’m so happy you’re back to your goal weight–you have no idea! To help maintain my weight, I don’t weigh myself. I know if I saw numbers go up I’d want to see them go down. So I eat what I want when I want. Easy peasy. Oh, that and LOTS of cereal at night
you could not have picked a more deserving winner! That comment was really so sweet of her and I loved that she wanted to win in order to SHARE with others! That’s just fabulous!
Onto other things, HUGE HUG right now for getting to your goal weight. I know that you’re in that weird “ugh how do I feel about this?!” stage right now but I think there is a much larger part of you that is relieved and happy about it rather than upset and frustrated. Of course, I would imagine that there would be days of feeling overwhelmed but you are the kind of person who can and will fight through them. With Kabbalah, Sonu, your parents, and all of us, you can maintain this new healthy life and embrace it. Ahh I am just so proud of you Jaime! You are simply one of the most honest, amazing, wonderful people I have ever “met.” You should be so proud of the person you are and the wonderful one that you are still growing into being.
And in regards to the trip with your family, I think that you should take the challenge on. It will prove to you that a) you can deal with problematic issues with a calm, cool, collected attitude, b) ED is no longer a powerhouse in your life, and c) that you can have fun even when the situation may not be ideal. You will have your mom with you and I think it will be good to catch up with family members that you don’t see that often. In the end, I know you will make the best decision for YOU and that’s what really counts.
p.s. a great way to stay on track is to think of the smiles your new weight brings to all the people you truly love. That kind of gratification is unlike any other.
p.p.s I think that just so amazing that you were able to receive that wonderful book. I love that just owning it brings SO much positivity to one’s life!
I love your yogurt messes
I actually tried the kashi honeysunshine cereal and must admit that it was love at first bite!!
Jamie, I am so proud of you for meeting your goal weight and enjoying the whole intuitive eating process
You’re an inspiration for everyone with overcoming fears and achieving your goals. I love how positive you always are!
lots of love
hi beautiful,
love all the delicious eats! the kabbalah class sounds awesome
im glad you love it so much!
Im so SO proud of you for reaching a healthy weight hun! its so insirational and you are such a strong woman! I totally get what you mean about not knowing how to maintain because youve always either been gaining or losing…but i know you can do this hun! your so amazing and i think you will defiently find out what works for you..it may take some time to find out what exactly works for your body, but i know youve got great patience when it comes to doing right by your body, so i know youll figure it out
im sorry about the knee bothering you
, but im so proud of you for taking it easy and not joggin till it feels better…you always listen to your body and youve really been someone i look up to, especially because ive had to take a few weeks of running and anything else other than walking.
And in regards to the family situation…i know these things can be so so stressful and hard..especially when we get so taken out of our comfort zone but remeber how amazing you are…you can handle anything
! and if you decide not to go in the end thats ok to, do what you feel is right for you sweetie!
Oh yeah and i was wondering if youd be interested in doing another bar swap?? I know how you loved some of the bars like the nakd ones
and you know i love getting the ones you always send me! Anyways if youd like to, let me know, cause it be up for it 
!!!
congrats to miss lindsey, shes one lucky gal winning that awesome package
love you lots
xxxx
my love,
this post made me smile once again. and i must take my head off in front of you for all the progress and determination that you have. DAMN! congrats on meeting your healthy weight again and remember its the low healthy weight. i know Ed loves coming back at these time and nag us like crazy.
as for the maintaining question i can just say CLOTHES. go and buy yourself something nice that fits you now. anything you like. spoil yourself. tell yourself this is it this my healthy life where i treat myself to things i want to have. if you dont like the clothes idea be it a massage. just get yourself into the i love my body and i will respect and take care of it the way it deserves. you cna do this.
jaime i am so proud of you
message me if you ever need anything or want to talk, i’m here of course
love you
xxx
Hey! Somehow I missed when your blog switched to wordpress so I’ve been missing all your posts for like a week and a half, I thought you disappeared from the blog world or something! Sorry about that, but I can’t wait to catch up! Glad to hear your knee is feeling well!
Congrats to Lindsey!!!!: ):)
The class with your Mom sounds great, such a positive thing!
You are amazing! You are beautiful! Life is YOURS to live!!!!!!!!!!! Pamper yourself, love yourself and just suck up all life has to offer to you!!!!
And………………I just want to reach out and HUG you and praise you hun!!!!!!!!!!! SO proud of you for reaching your goal weight but also for reaching PEACE OF MIND about it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo!
ohh, thanks for the zohar project info – i just read all about it and it sounds amazing. i’m trying to learn more about kabbalah – i love seeing little tidbits about it on your blog!
congrats on the goal weight. it IS something to be SO proud of! you stood up to all your fears, showed DE that you’re in control, and now you have the results to prove just how strong of a person you are. and with that in mind, i think you should challenge yourself and go to dc! trust me, i have been there with the “no working out for 6 days? can’t do it.” but you can! in five years, you might remember a few days with the people you love, but you probably won’t remember the hour you spent in the gym. just my two cents!
Yay dylans! I have a shirt from there, but I’ve never actually been myself (travesty, no?
)
As for the daily consideration, I’m still navigating that guy. I think maintaining is living day to day and adjusting as necessary. I don’t think, as I’ve gathered, that there is a set balance every day… or a perfect way to do it. I guess it’s all about trusting yourself, and it seems like you’re doing a fantastic job
Have a great Wednesday!!
<3 Jenn
Every time you mention Zaftigs as a restaurant, I have to laugh… isn’t it kind of like naming a restaurant “Fatass” or something?! ;p
Congrats on reaching your goal!! I’m definitely in the same place re: not knowing how to maintain; losing / gaining is easy, because it’s “active,” but the stasis of maintaining? Uh uh. Funny, because for someone who hates change, that should be a good thing!
As for the trip to DC … I don’t know what the family drama is all about, but if you know that your ED is suckering you into not wanting to go, then it probably would be good to take on the challenge. Good luck, whatever you decide!
<3 <3
I was just wondering if you use a brace or anything on your knee? I know you have IT band issues like I do and I have a brace but I don’t use it (shame on me haha).
Your dinner looks delicious as does the dessert plate! That big blob of chocolate thing has caught my eye
Honestly, I think you should go to DC. If you don’t go you’ll be sitting at home whereas if you go to DC you’ll be on vacation with your mom and having fun seeing the sights of the city! Sorry about the family drama – I’m going through something very similar (between my aunts and my cousins) and it’s just a drain!
Hi jamie! I hope you do decide to come to DC this summer. I live right outside of DC (in Maryland) and it’s such a wonderful place to visit. AND it has not been humid here at all this summer which is so weird. The last few mornings it’s been in the mid 50’s (chilly for my run) and almost fall-like. I love the heat without the humidity. Hope you visit! I’m sure you’ll get tons of exercise in touring the city!
Love your eats. Your breakfast always sounds delicious. Yum yum!
As far as your trip goes, it’s really up to YOU, not DE. I think you should go if YOU want to and know that you’ll have fun and enjoy yourself. Don’t let DE keep you from going. If JAIME doesn’t want to go, then don’t go. But if DE doesn’t want to go, I say go
Sorry to hear about how stressed you’ve been too! Hope the family drama gets sorted out as well. If you do go, maybe you could do a blogger meet up with some people. I know there are a few who live there.
Have a wonderful day!
<3 jess
xoxo
I think you should go to DC!
I really think you are overthinking this whole weight thing. Do you know how hard it is for someone to maintain a set weight from day to day? Of course you are going to have days when you weigh more and when you weigh less. It is a fact of life. But I think in your case you need to worry about weighing less. My weight can flucuate 5-10 pounds on any given day. I threw that damn scale out. It is a piece of crap. Go by how you look and feel, even though I know “DE” can distort it. Life is just too damn short to worry about those things. I have been there and done that.
Maintenance is one of the things I’m most worried about too… but really I just need to get there and see. Like you said, going up a few more lbs is not bad in the least. It would probably even be for the best as you would probably then learn to level off and be at less risk of dipping below what is “good”.
The food looks great! Eating truly intuitively is something I’m still working on, but hey it’s comin! (:
XOXO
Congrats on meeting your goal weight! That’s awesome!!! As far as maintenance goes, maybe you need to put the scale away. I know how hard that sounds, but maybe it’s holding you back.
In my case, I used to be so focused on weighing myself and maintaining a certain weight, that I could never reach the healthiest weight for me. When I stopped weighing myself everyday, I actually made the most progress.
At any rate, do what’s right for you, and keep up the WONDERFUL work!
Sarah
J i am BURSTING with excitement for you! you are the epitome of strength and determination — i honestly never doubted for a second that you could reach your goal weight! and i KNOW you can maintain and keep working on intuitive eating.. you are such an inspiration, gorgeous!
so much love to ya! xo
DYLANS CANDY BAR candies have no calories in any of their candies, didnt they tell you that?
that place is the shizz! my mom and i loaded up everytime we went when we lived in jerzey.
GO TO DC if JAMIE wants to
congratulations on reaching your goal weight! you should be really proud for taking care of your body!
and frozen grapes are the BEST!
-JB
http://cardiovegsular.wordpress.com
CONGRATS JAIME!!!!!! So excited for you girl and I KNOW in my heart that you will maintain, and it’s honestly going to be effortless….just let your body find that weight it’s happy with, and it will be able to stay the same no matter going a week, a month or a day without exercising….or under-eating one day or over-eating the next!! Just listen to your body and keep treatin’ it well! So excited for ya girl!
Alwaysss lovin’ your wraps and frozen grapes!! I need to freeze mine, but I always forget!
xoxoo
Welcome back beautiful! I’m glad you had fun with Sonu
Sorry to hear about your fall. Are you feeling back to normal now? Also, big congrats on your goal weight. I’m so glad that you reached it!! Even though its not a ‘pure joy’ feeling of accomplishment, I hope you realize how amazing this is and you deserve to celebrate and feel super proud because you rock! Oh and also, I’m SO EXCITED to hear that kabbalah is on your ‘MORE’ list!!! Yay!
Do you dunk your carrots in mustard? I dunk mine in ketchup.
Congrats on hitting your goal weight girl!! Just believe in yourself and you can do anything! That includes a trip to DC! Sounds like so much fun. I am facing the same challenge with going to Florida, but I know even if I bring breakfasts and lunches, I am challenging myself to do dinner outside and I will make it
As for the daily consideration, one of the things I do that helps me maintain my weight as well as a healthy mindset is taking an hour out of my day and reading these wonderful blogs. There are so many positive, successful and BEAUTIFUL women like yourself who help me merely by writing about their trials and triumphs. This community does really amazing things. I take that into my day and know that I am stronger than I think and feel like I can do anything
Just remember girl, when you struggle were there for you, and if you need to chat to release some anxiety, you know what to do. Gaining is scary, been there, but it takes a very strong and beautiful person to do it, losing is easy because, it’s always easy to give up. So continue being that stong beautiful girl we all love and know, and enjoy your books and summer. xo b
Aah bummer, I think my heart just broke a tiny bit when I saw the winner (only kidding, I don’t know Kirsten but I really hope she enjoys the fab things!)
On a serious note – I’m SO happy for you – though I totally understand you must have loads of different scary thoughts and feelings… But nothing worth it is ever easy, right?
And I’m so inspired by your study of Kabbalah… I’m so ignorant of so many things, and hearing about it makes me want to expand my own knowledge and SPIRIT too <3 you girl xxxx
Congratulations to the winner. I just entered today for your giveaway…guess I was a little late! (story of my life! LOL)